I hate her …

Posted by: Shahab on: December 4, 2005

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I was reading my old diaries just for the sake of refreshing memories when I found this entry .. This was posted on 18th of November some years ago .. One of my happier birthdays ..

She was looking gorgeous as ever in dark green dress .. We sat in silence for sometime .. Then I said “I hate you ..” ..
She didn’t say anything .. Just looked curiously .. So I continued .. “I hate you because I hate to be taken over .. I hate to cede .. And that’s what you are doing to me .. Your thoughts have taken over my mind .. I cant put you out of my mind .. This shouldn’t go on like this … ” . .. ..
She smiled and after a silence she said “I hate you too … I hate you because you can read my mind .. I hate the fact that you instantly know what thought I just had .. and what will be my next step .. I hate the fact that you think exactly like me .. This shouldn’t go on like this .. ” ..
So we sat there hating eachother but never for a moment not loving each other ..

After that was a discussion about one of SRK’s movie and some of my personal blah blah .. But why I quoted an entry from my personal diary is because I was feeling the same emotion I felt that time .. ..
I still hate to be taken over .. And I hate the fact that her memories still haunt me .. I still hate her .. Damn I still love her .. .