The Softer Side of Me ..

Hmm.. So this is it .. I’ll leave for Lucknow today for SBI’s Interview .. This is the second time I’ll be going to the IIM Lucknow ..

I’ll do my best .. Hopefully luck will be on my side .. You all pray for me too .. ..

I’ll be back on Monday hopefully … This being the Christmas time, the trains are too much crowded .. And then this time winter is chilling .. Ewww ..

Anyways .. Take care everyone ..! Wish me luck ..

Hmm .. It began like this … I got a call on my phone .. This a gal from BSNL asking “Sir you applied for DataOne some time ago .. Do you still want it ..” .. I said “Hell yess !! .. Tell me whom to kill .. Just tell me … ” … I had submitted the application in January .. and was waiting for them to provide a connection at my home .. Anyways .. She told me to submit yet another form .. I said okay .. So I submitted another form on Monday … And guess what after four days two lineman came with ADSL modem .. They didnt know how to install it though .. I told them its Okay … I can do it alright … So ..I configured it myself only to find that my account wasnt activated yet …

So I called their helpline and asked them whats the problem… They thought that I must’ve misconfigured the device, and told me they’ll come to my home and see what the problem is .. And after some 20 minutes, they were at my home .. And I used to blast BSNL’s crappy customer service … Anyways .. Those JTOs also didnt know anything about NAT , Routers and networking .. They just had manual and they set matching my router’s settings with the one in their manual .. Which were allright … So they admitted the problem must be at the exchange … Anyways they said they’ll see what to do at exchange the next day .. In the morning they called that some equipments werent working at the exhcange so it will take some time to get my account activated ..  I said okay .. I have waited for almost a year .. I can wait for a day too .. Khair .. in the evening when I reached home, it was activated, they’d called me on my cell too …

And so finally I got broadband .. Althought the plan is not uncapped, (1 GB) its unlimited from 2 AM to 8 AM .. And I am nocturnal already .. .. So, I am gonna download a lot of stuff now .. … But .. I’ll miss saying “Sancharnet Sucks” now and then … 

Now to ladies’ driving … I swear if someone will ask that are you biased against the females, I’ll tell them “Hell NO .. But that doesnt include their driving skills” … I mean who give these gals driving license …?? There should be a new type of driving license for ladies .. And there must be a sign for vehicles being driven by ladies … So that people can know that its a female driver and hence they should be cautious when they are aound ..

This happened yesterday .. I went to bank to make a draft .. I parked my bike near Library and was walking to bank when someone crashed into me … Annoyed, I turned back to find a gal driving a Sunny (Yeah .. they still exists) … Immediately she started “Sorry sorry .. The brakes arent working properly .. Blah blah .. ” Anyways I said its okay but drive carefully .. Then I crossed the road and went to the bank and after some 20 or thirty minutes, when the draft was ready, I came out of bank … Now when I was walking to Library someone again knocked me .. This time I was angry .. Turned and guess what I find .. This was the same gal on the same sunny .. Grr …I asked her who gave her my supari …? She was like ” I am very sorry and all” .. Yeah I said ..” You should be sorry that you couldnt kill me in two attempts .. But you are on the wrong vehicle .. You should bring atleast a car to kill me .. I wont die under a Sunny … ” and more things like that .. The gal almost started crying so waved her away ..

But from then I am still looking back to see if she is after me with her Sunny or not .. Phew .. Even Rajiv Gandhi didnt survive third attempt ..

Phew .. Today turned out to be of good fortune for me .. I was installing image validation code in my guestbook (it attracts hell lotta spam) and while the files were uploading, I decided to check my bank account .. Now when I opened SBI’s homepage, I saw the Recruitement link glowing, so I clicked on it to check if the results of written exams were out .. They were …! And when I downloaded the results files (2 files of around 2 Mb ) and checked my roll number, it was there ..!!

So my interview is on 24th of December so I’m gonna be very busy now .. I have to prepare for the interview and GD …

And yeah .. Wish be luck and pray for me ..

God bless you all .. .

I was reading my old diaries just for the sake of refreshing memories when I found this entry .. This was posted on 18th of November some years ago .. One of my happier birthdays ..

She was looking gorgeous as ever in dark green dress .. We sat in silence for sometime .. Then I said “I hate you ..” ..
She didn’t say anything .. Just looked curiously .. So I continued .. “I hate you because I hate to be taken over .. I hate to cede .. And that’s what you are doing to me .. Your thoughts have taken over my mind .. I cant put you out of my mind .. This shouldn’t go on like this … ” . .. ..
She smiled and after a silence she said “I hate you too … I hate you because you can read my mind .. I hate the fact that you instantly know what thought I just had .. and what will be my next step .. I hate the fact that you think exactly like me .. This shouldn’t go on like this .. ” ..
So we sat there hating eachother but never for a moment not loving each other ..

After that was a discussion about one of SRK’s movie and some of my personal blah blah .. But why I quoted an entry from my personal diary is because I was feeling the same emotion I felt that time .. ..
I still hate to be taken over .. And I hate the fact that her memories still haunt me .. I still hate her .. Damn I still love her .. .

Finally after a week of my being disconnected from the online world, I am back … I wanted to start this post with “BSNL Sucks” but later decided against it .. Those stupid morons took one week to repair a damaged cable .. sheesh ..

Anyways .. I used to access the net from my CCNA lab and check some of my regular blogs .. But boy I missed checking emails and Yahoo chat conferences .. And when I logged in yesterday there were 56 unread mails for me .. Phew . .. It will take one whole day to reply to all of them …

But secretly … I liked it .. .. When net wasnt there, I gave most of my time to studies .. I slept early too .. Now I’ll try to bring this discipline in my life with Internet being there ..

But surely .. This is bliss … I am addicted ..

As I already wrote that I stopped celebrating birthdays long time ago, this is just another day for me .. Hehe .. I slept till 10 Am and wake up on someone’s call ..Apart from some phone calls and congratulations, everything else is just the same .. I have to prepare for 2nd module’s assesment which is due on Saturday so I’ll be studying now ..

I was a bit worried about Neetie’s brother who was hospitalized last night … I prayed for him and I hope he’ll be fine soon ..

Btw .. Thank you everyone for all the birthday wishes .. .. They really mean much to me ..

तेरे खुशबू में बसे खत मैं जलाता कैसे
प्यार में डूबे हुए खत मैं जलाता कैसे
तेरे हाथों के लिखे खत मैं जलाता कैसे

जिनको दुनिया की निगाहों से छुपाए रखा
जिनको इक उम्र कलेजे से लगाए रखा
दीन जिनको, जिन्हे ईमान बनाए रखा
तेरे खुशबू में बसे खत मैं जलाता कैसे

जिनका हर लफ़्ज़ मुझे याद था पानी की तरह
याद थे जो मुझको जो पैगामे ज़बानी की तरह
मुझको प्यारे थे जो अनमोल निशानी की तरह
तेरे हाथों के लिखे खत मैं जलाता कैसे

तूने दुनिया की निगाहों से जो बचकर लिखे
सालहा साल मेरे नाम बराबर लिखे
कभी दिन में तो कभी रात को उठकर लिखे

तेरे खुशबू में बसे खत मैं जलाता कैसे
प्यार में डूबे हुए खत मैं जलाता कैसे
तेरे हाथों के लिखे खत मैं जलाता कैसे
तेरे खत मैं आज गंगा में बहा आया हूं
आग बहते हुए पानी में लगा आया हूं

This beautiful ghazal is one of my favorite. I wanted to show how to write in Hindi, so I thought why shouldn’t I write my favorite Ghazal for an example ..

Figuring out how I wrote that in Hindi ..? Find it out here.

After the holy month of Ramazan comes the joyous day of Eid .. It was a nice flip flop of happenings today .. The moon didnt appeared when it was supposed to and everyone was guessing if it will be another Roza tommorow .. But then news started coming from various places that it was indeed seen … So Eid is declared to be tommorow ..

So Eid Mubarak to everyone ..!!

I just noticed I got another WordPress invite … Nice to see that .. Now lemme think whose gonna be the lucky one this time ..

Edit: I just noticed that Referrers link in Manage page is missing .. Anyone tell me why ..?

How can I forget posting my favorite song ….  It brings me so many memories back …

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she’s got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you
With or without you