The Softer Side of Me ..

Hmm.. Been hell busy these days .. But now thats life .. You dont get time . . You have to take time out .. Anyways .. On a sudden impulse, I thought I should share one of my fav songs .. Its called “Jhonka Hawa ka” from the movie Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam .. It makes me very senti .. 😦 … I love it …
Here it goes :

Jhonka hawa ka aaj bhi
zulfen uraata hoga na ..
Tera dupatta aaj bhi tere
sar se sarakta hoga na …
Baalon main tere aaj bhi
phool koi sajta hoga na … .. . ..

Thandi hawaayein raaton main tujhko
thapkiyaan deti hogi na ..
Chaand ki thandak khwaabon main tujhko
leke to jaati to hogi na ….
Sooraj ki kirnay subah ko teri
neenden uraati hogi na …

Mere khayaalon main sanam
khud se hi baatein karti hogi na ….
Main dekhta hoon chhup chhup ke tum ko
mehsoos karti hogi na ….

Jhonka hawa ka aaj bhi zulfen uraata hoga na …

Kaaghaz pe meri tasveer jaise
kuchh to banaati hogi na …
Ulat palat ke dekh ke usko
jee bhar ke hansti hogi na ….
Hanste hanste aankhen tumhari
bhar bhar aati hogi na …..
Mujhko dhakaa tha dhoop main jis se
woh aanchal bhigoti hogi na …
Saawan ki rim jhim
mera taraana yaad dilati hogi na ….
Ek ek meri baatein tumko
yaad to aati hogi na …
Yaad to aati hogi na …..
Yaad to aati hogi na … ?

Kya tum mere in sab sawaalon ka
kuch to jawaab dogi na ..?

Just to let everyone know that I am still alive (Zinda) and kicking … All these days I’ve been very busy.. Done so much .. 😛 .. Gave many interviews, took many journeys, watched so many movies ..  Got job in SBI (Thanks to everyone who wished me luck and who prayed for me), will be finishing CCNA soon .. this and that … 😛 ..

Anyways, These days I am hooked to pakistani music … Man I love Strings and Fuzon … I wanted to quote this particular song as my comeback .. 😛 :

Yeh hai meri kahani .. Khaamosh zindagaani …
Sannaata keh raha hai .. Kyun zulm seh raha hai …
Ek daastaan purani … Tanhaayi ki zubaani …
Har zakhm khil raha hai … Kuchh mujhse keh raha hai …
Chubhte kaanten yaadon ke daaman se chunta hoon ..
Girti deewaron ke aanchal main zinda hoon .. ..

Bus yeh meri kahani .. Benishaan nishaani ..
Ek dard beh raha hai .. Kuch mujh se keh raha hai …
Chubhte kaante yaadon ke daaman se chunta hooon …
Girti deewaron ke aanchal main zindaa hoon .. ..

Bajaye pyar ki shabnam, mere gulistan main ..
Baraste rehte hain har simt maut ke saaye ..
Syahiyon se ulajh parti hain meri aankhen ..
Koi nahi .. koi bhi nahi jo bataye kitni der ujaalon ki raah dekhni hai ..
Koi nahi .. hai koi bhi nahi na paas na dooor ..
Ek yaar hai dil ki dharkan .. apni chaahat ka jo elaan kiye jaati hai ..
Zindagi hai jo jiye jaati hai … Khoon ke ghoont piye jaati hai …
Khwaab kaanton se siye jaati hai …. .. .

Ab na koi paas hai .. phir bhi ehsaas hai …
Syaahiyon main uljhi pari .. jeene ki ek aas hai ….
Yaadon ka jangal yeh dil … kaanton se jal thal yeh dil ….
Chubhte kaanten yaadon ke daaman se chunta hooon …
Girti deewaaron ke aanchal main zinda hoon … .. ..

Lol .. Dont get the thought that I am feeling emotionally down or something .. I aint ..  I just like this song .. 😛

Promise to be more regular from now on ..  ……

While I was writing  the last post half an hour ago, My friend smsed me that SBI Associate results are out .. Check them out .. I thought okay .. Lemme . ..

I downloaded the results and yet again I have cleared the written exam .. 😀 .. Seems now the hard labour is paying back .. The interview dates arent intimated yet, but it will be conducted in XLRI, Jamshedpur .. So .. Its traveling time for me .. 🙂

Anyways .. I am concentrating on the SBI interview on the 24th … Lets see how it turns out.. :)…

Hmm.. So this is it .. I’ll leave for Lucknow today for SBI’s Interview .. This is the second time I’ll be going to the IIM Lucknow ..

I’ll do my best .. Hopefully luck will be on my side .. You all pray for me too .. 🙂 ..

I’ll be back on Monday hopefully … This being the Christmas time, the trains are too much crowded .. And then this time winter is chilling .. Ewww ..

Anyways .. Take care everyone ..! Wish me luck .. 🙂

Hmm .. It began like this … I got a call on my phone .. This a gal from BSNL asking “Sir you applied for DataOne some time ago .. Do you still want it ..” .. I said “Hell yess !! .. Tell me whom to kill .. Just tell me … ” … I had submitted the application in January .. and was waiting for them to provide a connection at my home .. Anyways .. She told me to submit yet another form .. I said okay .. So I submitted another form on Monday … And guess what after four days two lineman came with ADSL modem .. They didnt know how to install it though .. I told them its Okay … I can do it alright … So ..I configured it myself only to find that my account wasnt activated yet …

So I called their helpline and asked them whats the problem… They thought that I must’ve misconfigured the device, and told me they’ll come to my home and see what the problem is .. And after some 20 minutes, they were at my home .. And I used to blast BSNL’s crappy customer service … Anyways .. Those JTOs also didnt know anything about NAT , Routers and networking .. They just had manual and they set matching my router’s settings with the one in their manual .. Which were allright … So they admitted the problem must be at the exchange … Anyways they said they’ll see what to do at exchange the next day .. In the morning they called that some equipments werent working at the exhcange so it will take some time to get my account activated ..  I said okay .. I have waited for almost a year .. I can wait for a day too .. Khair .. in the evening when I reached home, it was activated, they’d called me on my cell too …

And so finally I got broadband .. Althought the plan is not uncapped, (1 GB) its unlimited from 2 AM to 8 AM .. And I am nocturnal already .. 😛 .. So, I am gonna download a lot of stuff now .. 😀 … But .. I’ll miss saying “Sancharnet Sucks” now and then …  😛

Now to ladies’ driving … I swear if someone will ask that are you biased against the females, I’ll tell them “Hell NO .. But that doesnt include their driving skills” … I mean who give these gals driving license …?? There should be a new type of driving license for ladies .. And there must be a sign for vehicles being driven by ladies … So that people can know that its a female driver and hence they should be cautious when they are aound ..

This happened yesterday .. I went to bank to make a draft .. I parked my bike near Library and was walking to bank when someone crashed into me … Annoyed, I turned back to find a gal driving a Sunny (Yeah .. they still exists) … Immediately she started “Sorry sorry .. The brakes arent working properly .. Blah blah .. ” Anyways I said its okay but drive carefully .. Then I crossed the road and went to the bank and after some 20 or thirty minutes, when the draft was ready, I came out of bank … Now when I was walking to Library someone again knocked me .. This time I was angry .. Turned and guess what I find .. This was the same gal on the same sunny .. Grr …I asked her who gave her my supari …? She was like ” I am very sorry and all” .. Yeah I said ..” You should be sorry that you couldnt kill me in two attempts .. But you are on the wrong vehicle .. You should bring atleast a car to kill me .. I wont die under a Sunny … ” and more things like that .. The gal almost started crying so waved her away ..

But from then I am still looking back to see if she is after me with her Sunny or not .. Phew .. Even Rajiv Gandhi didnt survive third attempt ..

Phew .. Today turned out to be of good fortune for me .. I was installing image validation code in my guestbook (it attracts hell lotta spam) and while the files were uploading, I decided to check my bank account .. Now when I opened SBI’s homepage, I saw the Recruitement link glowing, so I clicked on it to check if the results of written exams were out .. They were …! And when I downloaded the results files (2 files of around 2 Mb 😦 ) and checked my roll number, it was there ..!!

So my interview is on 24th of December so I’m gonna be very busy now .. I have to prepare for the interview and GD …

And yeah .. Wish be luck and pray for me .. 🙂

God bless you all .. . 🙂

I was reading my old diaries just for the sake of refreshing memories when I found this entry .. This was posted on 18th of November some years ago .. One of my happier birthdays ..

She was looking gorgeous as ever in dark green dress .. We sat in silence for sometime .. Then I said “I hate you ..” ..
She didn’t say anything .. Just looked curiously .. So I continued .. “I hate you because I hate to be taken over .. I hate to cede .. And that’s what you are doing to me .. Your thoughts have taken over my mind .. I cant put you out of my mind .. This shouldn’t go on like this … ” . .. ..
She smiled and after a silence she said “I hate you too … I hate you because you can read my mind .. I hate the fact that you instantly know what thought I just had .. and what will be my next step .. I hate the fact that you think exactly like me .. This shouldn’t go on like this .. ” ..
So we sat there hating eachother but never for a moment not loving each other ..

After that was a discussion about one of SRK’s movie and some of my personal blah blah .. But why I quoted an entry from my personal diary is because I was feeling the same emotion I felt that time .. ..
I still hate to be taken over .. And I hate the fact that her memories still haunt me .. I still hate her .. Damn I still love her .. .